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[ it had been one of those days for alyssa, the ones that rendered her unable to attend classes for more than a few hours-- the ones that had nathan running to her as quickly as possible. thankfully her health and mood seemed to improve throughout the afternoon, giving nathan time to decide whether or not to call albert. when she seemed fine in less time than usual he decided against it, instead suggesting some things for them to do to pass the time. of course, a disney film reigned supreme.

when their movie came to a close nathan turned to look down at alyssa, the girl curled up with her head on his lap, dozing off into what seemed to be a peaceful sleep. he didn't take any time in picking her up gently and moving towards his room, laying her down on top of his bed before grabbing a blanket and putting it over her small body. smiles down at her and brushes a hand against her hair, shutting the door half-way when he makes it back into the living room to start picking up the steadily growing mess that had accumulated throughout the hours of her stay. ]

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[ shakes his head. opens his mouth, closes it, then lets his shoulders slump, knowing that he has to be vague while he sorts out his thoughts. ]

She was dying.

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[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ freezes. ]

. . . What?

[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ starts standing up shakily. ]

What. . . ? What happened? Is she-- is she going to be okay--?

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[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ looks up at him but doesn't say anything, just observing anthony as if he sees this everyday. pushes himself away from his resting spot when he feels ready, quietly walking towards the couch again. stops before he could get there, however, looking down at his necklace. grasps it a little, then lets his hand fall. ]

I don't expect you to know the details, but I do get the feeling that you know we're not normal humans. Not really, anyway. We're just... the same person, sort of. But Alyssa's different since she wasn't born like us. She had a natural birth, didn't come out of a tube or anything.

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The only problem is that in reality she is the same as us. Not just physically, but emotionally. That's our problem, you see, because it's nothing we can change. [ places a hand on his chest. ] We have this... urge to be attached to someone. Just like anyone else that feels the need to be have a companion in life, only we physically and emotionally create this... bond, I guess you could say, by just feeling very strongly for another person. It's both wonderful but extremely deadly at the same time. We didn't know this until just recently.

When the bond is threatened, though, things don't go over so well. But not everyone is the same. Some of us take a fight or flight response to this bond being tampered with, and others... [ pauses, feeling that twinge in his heart as he typically does at these times. ] Well, others aren't exactly in the best state of mind. And now we know what Alyssa's response is, when she isn't able to have that bond be connected to the person she really loves. It backfired on her, and--

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[ eventually he pauses to look anthony up and down. switches the topic, hoping this would help him to understand better. ]

I know what happened. Between you and Alyssa. We all do. This wouldn't have been an issue if things went over smoothly, but...

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[ hates that he has to admit this, though it doesn't sound at all like he's blaming him. quite the opposite, if his expression doesn't give it away. ]

She made that attachment to you, Anthony.

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[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ stands there for a moment, silently soaking in everything. closes his eyes briefly as he swallows down a lump in his throat, then glances up at nathan briefly to communicate that he understands -- enough -- before turning his eyes to the floor in guilt & shame. ]

. . . I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I. . . [ stops to bring up an arm to press it against his eyes. ] I couldn't-- I didn't want to-- she deserved more, so I. . .

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I. . . she. . . [ forces himself to breathe. ] Is there-- is there anything I can do? To-- To help her?

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[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ scratches the back of his neck, unsure if he should reassure him. decides against it, just opting to explain a bit more to get everything out there. ]

Honestly? We didn't want you around her for a while. We were worried that if you two were together that things would start all over again. Took almost four months to bring her back to a state where she'd be able to function properly. I... won't go into details.

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... but it looks like she's really happy around you. Doubt anything would happen if you stayed with her like you usually do.

[ shrugs a bit. ] She'd be more crushed if you went away or avoided her, but it's up to you.

[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ manages a shrug of his own. looks up & manages a tight smile. ]

. . . If she's alright, then I'll stay.

[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ notices that tight smile, arms crossing over his chest again. there's silence, and then: ]

... she'll be able to feel if you don't want to be around her, or if you're acting weird. To her nothing happened, you know? If you need some time to yourself for a while, you can take it. To think, whatever. She stays with me most of the time, so it's best to just drop by here or call her. We're thinking about taking her out of school until she's better, so that option is out.

[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ shrugs, seemingly not surprised by the words. ]

She's always been able to know. That's not new. [ turns his gaze back to the ground. ] Exams are coming around soon. I'll use that time. To think.

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[ sighs through his nose, feeling slightly disappointed yet understanding at the same time. ]

I'll keep her occupied until then.

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[ shakes his head, sucking in a breath sharply to recover his balance. ]

It won't be long.

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Good.

[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ pauses. sighs again. ]

Is there anything else you want to know? You need to know?

[cutemajor.livejournal.com]

[ feels a brief flutter of frustration before he looks up to finally meet nathan's gaze. ]

. . . has she forgotten anything?

[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ eyes roll up to the ceiling. ]

Anything that has to do with you guys dating, pretty much, or however she felt. Everything is really fuzzy for her, though, but I know at least that much. I'm sure you've noticed that she's not entirely herself and that she-- [ stops to gesture around his apartment, knowing he'll get the gist of it. ] --you know, is here all the time.

[bawkmajor.livejournal.com]

[ nods & turns his gaze to the side. ]

But she. . . will she get better?

[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ feels like he should answer right away with something positive, though knows better than to do that. just looks at the ground. ]

... that's what we're hoping for. All we can do is wait and see what happens.

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I see. [ breathes out quietly & shakes his head, deciding not to say anything else other than: ] Thank you.

[prideofchange.livejournal.com]

[ gives a short nod instead of a verbal reply. looks over at his bedroom's door, deciding to gesture over to it. ]

I'll give you a moment with her if you need it.

[cutemajor.livejournal.com]

[ nods again, rubbing at an eye with a palm in sudden exhaustion. ]

Please.