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ON RIKU
... so here I am, doing Riku's essay thing.
Since Riku in Kingdom Hearts is taken differently from every angle, I've sort of just. Taken him from what I've seen so far and then smooshed in some of my own stuff into his mind. Don't know how to explain it, really.
So. Riku. After story time with him in Rob's new place, I think he realized how much he really doesn't like the things he's done in the past. Sure, we all know he's like that in the game, but... seeing as how he likes Rob, he's almost a little. Hm. Hesitant on telling him the whole truth, just like Rob is hesitant on telling Riku everything about him. So as much as they both “know” about one another, they actually know very little. Riku, however, doesn't think that matters that much. If it were at all important, it would come up in conversation, right? Though considering what we're planning, it does seem like it will matter sooner or later. Part of me thinks that Riku would be scared if Rob knew who he used to be, what he used to be. So he tells him things, but not directly.
Also, he never seemed like the type of kid to have any sort of family around him, which is why Riku considers himself parentless. If someone isn't around, then he doesn't really care about them, save for a good handful of people he honestly, truly cares about. So I'm guessing he was a little neglected as a child, which is why he so strongly tries to prove himself “worthy”, which in turn made him cocky and arrogant in his younger years. Not that he isn't a little bit of both to this day, but it's obviously toned down. A lot.
And... about his age. I know KH Riku is about 16, but I made this Riku around 17 or 18. I'm not sure why, really, though I never knew how to bring it up in conversation. :') Still, he has a good few years on everyone else, but that gave him time to grow and stop living in the past. It's obvious that he's weary about spilling his “secrets” (aka his past) to Anna and Rob, but really, I think it's because it still haunts him every now and then.
What else. Guess I should just move onto Rob, then, since his existence in PR mainly surrounds him.
When they first met Riku was just trying to get a rise out of him, hence laying it on thick with his teasing. I'm not sure if he even realized that he liked Rob from the start, but something did start on the first day he met him. It just wasn't what it was now. I think he was mainly interested in a person who looked exactly like Roxas (from KH), one that wasn't like him at all. Plus he was different from Anna entirely, which piqued his interest even more, seeing as how Rob is very straight-forward. That and, well. They started off with Rob doing his job, not actually “showing” what he really thinks/feels. So it was yet another challenge to Riku, which is another reason why he bothered him so much. Maybe he was even a little curious to see what would happen? Luckily for him, Rob did warm up to him.
As he started knowing that he liked Rob past him just being a friend, I don't even think Riku showed any signs of it. Like, he simply went on with life and hung out with him and Anna as much as humanly possible. Seeing as how he's 17/18 in the KH timeline, he's definitely out of school, which I think leaves him sort of bored in the first place. So yeah, it was boredom at first, but he slowly grew... attached to not only Rob, but Anna as well. Though I'll get to Anna later on.
This attachment was followed by Rob being his “special case” when it came to, well, a lot of things. For one, Riku is definitely not the type to just leave things be. He can be sort of a jerk when he wants to be (jokingly, unless you annoy him), but Rob never caused him to get annoyed/upset over how he acts. The obvious dislike towards Riku wasn't overlooked, and it didn't sway him at all from smacking him upside the head and walking away. People like that aren't worth his time. However, Rob just. Wasn't on his “normal reaction” list from the get-go. Call it an instant attraction of some sort. So when Rob starts to change? I don't think Riku would even bat an eyelash to said change. In his eyes Rob is a person (not a thing), and people can change drastically over time. But the way Rob will react in the future won't bother him at all. I'm not even sure why, actually, but it balances them out nicely, seeing as how Rob tolerated Riku, warmed up to him, and then grew his own sort of attachment to him (Yes? No? Idk it's only from my observation). I guess Riku felt accomplished because of this, but at that time it was much more than that.
Speaking of said attraction to Rob, Riku really wasn't... confident in this feeling. Not because he was second-guessing himself, but he was finally holding himself back from not saying what was on his mind. Whenever he thought about saying something, he'd push it in the back of his mind and forget about it. Or try to, anyway. ... I don't know. It's like someone being all smooth and whatnot, then they find someone they really like but they falter on not knowing how to confess it. Maybe he was even a little shy? Hesitant, obviously, though there's more to it than just that. Like in the fic I wrote, he was seriously hella nervous but tried to gain some of that confidence back to say what he wanted to say.
Hm. Actually, backtracking on that last part (about the Christmas fic), for some reason I'm getting the feeling that Rob... might have avoided Riku when he realized that he felt something more than just tolerance towards him? I could be completely wrong, though it would definitely stop me from doing a fic I had planned out (or rather, a fic I started and wanted to finish). Nonetheless, I hope there was some kind of time where he didn't see Rob all that much. More development time, making the Christmas fic all the more... meaningful, I suppose? Not that it isn't already, it would just give it a little more unf.
So now that they're together, we already spoke about a lot of things they're going to talk about, mainly about their relationship. I'd ruin the spam if I spoke on how Riku feels about it all, so I won't. I'll just move on to the intimate parts.
Unlike everyone else in fandom, I don't see Riku as the type to just jump on people and ravish them senseless. Because really, I think he's more of a chaste kind of person, what with his lesson of being able to listen to his heart and not with just his mind. It made him more opt to take things slowly, knowing that jumping right into important things wouldn't be for the best. So that's why he's actually pretty reluctant to even touch Rob, other than the hair rufflings and occasional arm around his shoulders. That and he knows how Rob is with the whole touching thing, so it doesn't ever leave his mind when he attempt to initiate some form of contact with him. Which is another reason why he doesn't push him to do anything (more so speaking on verbal things, not physical) or inquire about something that Rob doesn't look like he wants to talk about. Sure, there are times where he thinks it's necessary to prod (see the aftermath of “the meeting with X” dream), but he wouldn't force him to say anything. Same goes for the physical stuff.
I remember me saying that their relationship is extremely innocent. When I think about it, it really is. Most people just jump into things because hey, why not, hormones and all that. But Riku doesn't think it's absolutely necessary to have that kind of relationship with someone. Just being around Rob is enough for him, as cheesy as that may sound, but it's very much so true. Like how Riku initially turned away from sleeping in the same bed as Rob (see the last half of the Christmas fic), then when he was silently invited to he didn't even get under the covers. He's... cautious, almost. He doesn't want to give Rob the wrong idea, after all. I think the only “bold move” he has ever made (past his kiss on the Christmas fic) was the bedroom scene after Rob “meeting” X, but that was mainly because Rob seemed reluctant to fall asleep/shaken by it on some level. Riku wanted him to feel like he didn't have to be afraid to go back to sleep, and that he could at least do that much, seeing as how he can't exactly help him in any other way.
... hm. Which makes me wonder if, past the Christmas stuff, they ever kissed after that. It was sort of an impulse reaction with both of them, or so I think? It's like when you get lost in something and you just can't stop. But other than that, I can't really see them doing that outside of that scene. I'm not even sure why. Maybe because they were in the open yet still alone? I'm guessing most of the Riku's visits consists of him being at Rob's place, so instead of being out in the open, they're actually somewhere that's more private. Does that make any sense? It's sort of them not being at that “perfect moment”, like they kind of stepped outside of their normal realm and fell into one that threw logic out the window. Now, however, they're back in some sort of reality, but that's obviously not 100% when they have the srs business talk.
I think this is mainly because Riku respects Rob. He doesn't see him as a thing or an object that he can just do anything he wants with, so unless Rob showed any signs of wanting that sort of affection, well. He wouldn't just randomly do it. Not after the Christmas thing, anyway. Like I said, he's more content with the fact that they're at least semi-together, though he's not too worried with the details, which is probably why he never brought up the topic of what their relationship really entails.
Now for after they're over that hurtle and it's a few years after this whole mess. Since we already assumed they'd finally create something that was more “real” over time, opposed to going blindly with the flow, Riku would propose to him. Sure, he knows they're young and all that good stuff, but to Riku? Yeah, it doesn't really matter. What does it matter if it's now or even way into the future? Why wait, etc. I'm not sure how he'd do it, but it'll happen, that much we're sure of.
... but the amusing part is that doing the deed with Rob after that didn't cross his mind. Not even once. Which is why I said that after Anna gave Rob “the talk”, he'd just laugh at Rob telling him and tell him they didn't have to do anything. Not that he wouldn't like to, but again, he respects Rob. Unless the boy felt like it needed to happen, even after how many years they had been together and they still did nothing, Riku wouldn't push him into doing it. The romantic side of me kind of hopes it'll happen right after Anna throws his huge party (... I'm amused at the thought of Anna sitting Rob down in the middle of it to give him Anna-styled Sex Ed, Riku being none the wiser when he pulls Rob away to get away from the loud party, much obnoxious whooping is heard, etc.) because. Wedding nights. Even if I'm guessing all they'll do is sign the papers and be done with it. Yeah, Anna would like the whole shebang, but Riku doesn't think it's necessary. Not that he doesn't think it's special, of course, it's just. He knows Rob would be uncomfortable in that kind of position, and Riku, again, doesn't really care either way. Or maybe part of him would be uncomfortable with it too. Who knows.
Which brings me to the topic of the whole wedding bands thing. I think why Riku would be like :( to Rob not wanting it on his finger is because of him being, um. A little bit traditional when it comes to certain things? He's pretty relaxed with everything else, but part of him wants some kind of tradition, especially since he never followed anything like that in his entire life (or rather, he never had the chance to have any sort of tradition on any level, though that probably stems more from the fact that he didn't have a “real family”, opposed to other people he hung around with as a kid). Everything was just an open road and he could do anything he wanted and such, but Rob was the first thing (person) that made him stop and want to have some kind of foundation in his life, hence the whole “I want to marry you because it symbolizes something” rather than... anything else. Maybe he likes the idea of something matching, 'cause matching stuff is... ... something. IDK IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN. I'll think on this more later on.
Now for Anna, because I need to ramble on about this. I think they mainly have a special connection because of Rob, though that's not the basis of their friendship. Perhaps it's because Anna did open up to him that day, which in kind makes Riku uh. More open with him? Meaning he knows they could have a give-and-take sort of relationship, especially after how Anna reacted that day. I'm kind of guessing he'd actually go to Anna to talk about things whenever he had a problem, though I'm guessing 50% of it has to do with Rob. He'd feel okay spilling to him because he openly trusts him. He knows Anna has a good heart and would keep their conversations secret-like. It's between them and nobody else.
... there's not much actually on Riku because, well. Past his darkness/family life (or lack of)/thoughts on Rob there's really not much to him. Really. Though I guess that's mainly because he's a “minor character” in PR. So I guess I'll edit this whenever something changes.
Since Riku in Kingdom Hearts is taken differently from every angle, I've sort of just. Taken him from what I've seen so far and then smooshed in some of my own stuff into his mind. Don't know how to explain it, really.
So. Riku. After story time with him in Rob's new place, I think he realized how much he really doesn't like the things he's done in the past. Sure, we all know he's like that in the game, but... seeing as how he likes Rob, he's almost a little. Hm. Hesitant on telling him the whole truth, just like Rob is hesitant on telling Riku everything about him. So as much as they both “know” about one another, they actually know very little. Riku, however, doesn't think that matters that much. If it were at all important, it would come up in conversation, right? Though considering what we're planning, it does seem like it will matter sooner or later. Part of me thinks that Riku would be scared if Rob knew who he used to be, what he used to be. So he tells him things, but not directly.
Also, he never seemed like the type of kid to have any sort of family around him, which is why Riku considers himself parentless. If someone isn't around, then he doesn't really care about them, save for a good handful of people he honestly, truly cares about. So I'm guessing he was a little neglected as a child, which is why he so strongly tries to prove himself “worthy”, which in turn made him cocky and arrogant in his younger years. Not that he isn't a little bit of both to this day, but it's obviously toned down. A lot.
And... about his age. I know KH Riku is about 16, but I made this Riku around 17 or 18. I'm not sure why, really, though I never knew how to bring it up in conversation. :') Still, he has a good few years on everyone else, but that gave him time to grow and stop living in the past. It's obvious that he's weary about spilling his “secrets” (aka his past) to Anna and Rob, but really, I think it's because it still haunts him every now and then.
What else. Guess I should just move onto Rob, then, since his existence in PR mainly surrounds him.
When they first met Riku was just trying to get a rise out of him, hence laying it on thick with his teasing. I'm not sure if he even realized that he liked Rob from the start, but something did start on the first day he met him. It just wasn't what it was now. I think he was mainly interested in a person who looked exactly like Roxas (from KH), one that wasn't like him at all. Plus he was different from Anna entirely, which piqued his interest even more, seeing as how Rob is very straight-forward. That and, well. They started off with Rob doing his job, not actually “showing” what he really thinks/feels. So it was yet another challenge to Riku, which is another reason why he bothered him so much. Maybe he was even a little curious to see what would happen? Luckily for him, Rob did warm up to him.
As he started knowing that he liked Rob past him just being a friend, I don't even think Riku showed any signs of it. Like, he simply went on with life and hung out with him and Anna as much as humanly possible. Seeing as how he's 17/18 in the KH timeline, he's definitely out of school, which I think leaves him sort of bored in the first place. So yeah, it was boredom at first, but he slowly grew... attached to not only Rob, but Anna as well. Though I'll get to Anna later on.
This attachment was followed by Rob being his “special case” when it came to, well, a lot of things. For one, Riku is definitely not the type to just leave things be. He can be sort of a jerk when he wants to be (jokingly, unless you annoy him), but Rob never caused him to get annoyed/upset over how he acts. The obvious dislike towards Riku wasn't overlooked, and it didn't sway him at all from smacking him upside the head and walking away. People like that aren't worth his time. However, Rob just. Wasn't on his “normal reaction” list from the get-go. Call it an instant attraction of some sort. So when Rob starts to change? I don't think Riku would even bat an eyelash to said change. In his eyes Rob is a person (not a thing), and people can change drastically over time. But the way Rob will react in the future won't bother him at all. I'm not even sure why, actually, but it balances them out nicely, seeing as how Rob tolerated Riku, warmed up to him, and then grew his own sort of attachment to him (Yes? No? Idk it's only from my observation). I guess Riku felt accomplished because of this, but at that time it was much more than that.
Speaking of said attraction to Rob, Riku really wasn't... confident in this feeling. Not because he was second-guessing himself, but he was finally holding himself back from not saying what was on his mind. Whenever he thought about saying something, he'd push it in the back of his mind and forget about it. Or try to, anyway. ... I don't know. It's like someone being all smooth and whatnot, then they find someone they really like but they falter on not knowing how to confess it. Maybe he was even a little shy? Hesitant, obviously, though there's more to it than just that. Like in the fic I wrote, he was seriously hella nervous but tried to gain some of that confidence back to say what he wanted to say.
Hm. Actually, backtracking on that last part (about the Christmas fic), for some reason I'm getting the feeling that Rob... might have avoided Riku when he realized that he felt something more than just tolerance towards him? I could be completely wrong, though it would definitely stop me from doing a fic I had planned out (or rather, a fic I started and wanted to finish). Nonetheless, I hope there was some kind of time where he didn't see Rob all that much. More development time, making the Christmas fic all the more... meaningful, I suppose? Not that it isn't already, it would just give it a little more unf.
So now that they're together, we already spoke about a lot of things they're going to talk about, mainly about their relationship. I'd ruin the spam if I spoke on how Riku feels about it all, so I won't. I'll just move on to the intimate parts.
Unlike everyone else in fandom, I don't see Riku as the type to just jump on people and ravish them senseless. Because really, I think he's more of a chaste kind of person, what with his lesson of being able to listen to his heart and not with just his mind. It made him more opt to take things slowly, knowing that jumping right into important things wouldn't be for the best. So that's why he's actually pretty reluctant to even touch Rob, other than the hair rufflings and occasional arm around his shoulders. That and he knows how Rob is with the whole touching thing, so it doesn't ever leave his mind when he attempt to initiate some form of contact with him. Which is another reason why he doesn't push him to do anything (more so speaking on verbal things, not physical) or inquire about something that Rob doesn't look like he wants to talk about. Sure, there are times where he thinks it's necessary to prod (see the aftermath of “the meeting with X” dream), but he wouldn't force him to say anything. Same goes for the physical stuff.
I remember me saying that their relationship is extremely innocent. When I think about it, it really is. Most people just jump into things because hey, why not, hormones and all that. But Riku doesn't think it's absolutely necessary to have that kind of relationship with someone. Just being around Rob is enough for him, as cheesy as that may sound, but it's very much so true. Like how Riku initially turned away from sleeping in the same bed as Rob (see the last half of the Christmas fic), then when he was silently invited to he didn't even get under the covers. He's... cautious, almost. He doesn't want to give Rob the wrong idea, after all. I think the only “bold move” he has ever made (past his kiss on the Christmas fic) was the bedroom scene after Rob “meeting” X, but that was mainly because Rob seemed reluctant to fall asleep/shaken by it on some level. Riku wanted him to feel like he didn't have to be afraid to go back to sleep, and that he could at least do that much, seeing as how he can't exactly help him in any other way.
... hm. Which makes me wonder if, past the Christmas stuff, they ever kissed after that. It was sort of an impulse reaction with both of them, or so I think? It's like when you get lost in something and you just can't stop. But other than that, I can't really see them doing that outside of that scene. I'm not even sure why. Maybe because they were in the open yet still alone? I'm guessing most of the Riku's visits consists of him being at Rob's place, so instead of being out in the open, they're actually somewhere that's more private. Does that make any sense? It's sort of them not being at that “perfect moment”, like they kind of stepped outside of their normal realm and fell into one that threw logic out the window. Now, however, they're back in some sort of reality, but that's obviously not 100% when they have the srs business talk.
I think this is mainly because Riku respects Rob. He doesn't see him as a thing or an object that he can just do anything he wants with, so unless Rob showed any signs of wanting that sort of affection, well. He wouldn't just randomly do it. Not after the Christmas thing, anyway. Like I said, he's more content with the fact that they're at least semi-together, though he's not too worried with the details, which is probably why he never brought up the topic of what their relationship really entails.
Now for after they're over that hurtle and it's a few years after this whole mess. Since we already assumed they'd finally create something that was more “real” over time, opposed to going blindly with the flow, Riku would propose to him. Sure, he knows they're young and all that good stuff, but to Riku? Yeah, it doesn't really matter. What does it matter if it's now or even way into the future? Why wait, etc. I'm not sure how he'd do it, but it'll happen, that much we're sure of.
... but the amusing part is that doing the deed with Rob after that didn't cross his mind. Not even once. Which is why I said that after Anna gave Rob “the talk”, he'd just laugh at Rob telling him and tell him they didn't have to do anything. Not that he wouldn't like to, but again, he respects Rob. Unless the boy felt like it needed to happen, even after how many years they had been together and they still did nothing, Riku wouldn't push him into doing it. The romantic side of me kind of hopes it'll happen right after Anna throws his huge party (... I'm amused at the thought of Anna sitting Rob down in the middle of it to give him Anna-styled Sex Ed, Riku being none the wiser when he pulls Rob away to get away from the loud party, much obnoxious whooping is heard, etc.) because. Wedding nights. Even if I'm guessing all they'll do is sign the papers and be done with it. Yeah, Anna would like the whole shebang, but Riku doesn't think it's necessary. Not that he doesn't think it's special, of course, it's just. He knows Rob would be uncomfortable in that kind of position, and Riku, again, doesn't really care either way. Or maybe part of him would be uncomfortable with it too. Who knows.
Which brings me to the topic of the whole wedding bands thing. I think why Riku would be like :( to Rob not wanting it on his finger is because of him being, um. A little bit traditional when it comes to certain things? He's pretty relaxed with everything else, but part of him wants some kind of tradition, especially since he never followed anything like that in his entire life (or rather, he never had the chance to have any sort of tradition on any level, though that probably stems more from the fact that he didn't have a “real family”, opposed to other people he hung around with as a kid). Everything was just an open road and he could do anything he wanted and such, but Rob was the first thing (person) that made him stop and want to have some kind of foundation in his life, hence the whole “I want to marry you because it symbolizes something” rather than... anything else. Maybe he likes the idea of something matching, 'cause matching stuff is... ... something. IDK IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN. I'll think on this more later on.
Now for Anna, because I need to ramble on about this. I think they mainly have a special connection because of Rob, though that's not the basis of their friendship. Perhaps it's because Anna did open up to him that day, which in kind makes Riku uh. More open with him? Meaning he knows they could have a give-and-take sort of relationship, especially after how Anna reacted that day. I'm kind of guessing he'd actually go to Anna to talk about things whenever he had a problem, though I'm guessing 50% of it has to do with Rob. He'd feel okay spilling to him because he openly trusts him. He knows Anna has a good heart and would keep their conversations secret-like. It's between them and nobody else.
... there's not much actually on Riku because, well. Past his darkness/family life (or lack of)/thoughts on Rob there's really not much to him. Really. Though I guess that's mainly because he's a “minor character” in PR. So I guess I'll edit this whenever something changes.