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[ it was with some strange stroke of luck that nathan had confirmed the non-presence of albert, brianna, and damon in the mansion for the weekend, almost suspiciously double-checking with them all to make sure; albert was off to god knows where, brianna flew out to hawaii for a photo shoot, and damon was spending some quality time with his friends before the summer officially came to a close.

nathan didn't think it would be this simple. lo and behold, the mansion was completely his for the taking for at least two and a half days. this prompted the almost juvenile-like excitement that overcame him when he invited caleb over for a real two-night stay inside the mansion, to show him where he lived (where he didn't like to live) and let him explore what he normally did not allow people to see. so this is why he tugged at caleb's hand enthusiastically, his body betraying the way he tried to school his expression, knowing somewhere in the back of his mind that in the end it was quite a futile attempt.

stops when they're far enough inside the mansion, not bothering to let caleb's hand go as he turns slightly to look at him. ]

Well, here we are. [ a pause, as if his excitement was slowly wearing off. ] Again.

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[ ?! --is about the extent of his thoughts as he watches the dizzying speed with which nathan is moving. there is a deafening silence after the bang of the bathroom door closing -- the volume of which is enough to make him wince & draw his head down a bit.

after shaking off the disorienting sensation, he looks pointedly at (through) the door as he wanders over shakily to give it an inquiring knock. ]

. . . ?

[ holds the clothing close to his chest, trying to calm himself and breathe properly again. keeps his eyes to the ground as he slowly takes off his own clothing, neatly setting it aside so that he could pull on and push up his pajamas.

jumps a bit at the knock. inhale, exhale; grabs his old clothes and finally steps out, pointedly not looking at caleb. ]

... I'm fine. S-see?

[ bends a little bit so that he can attempt at catching glimpse of nathan's face. ]

Ehh. . . is not bad, but is not good?

[ opens his mouth then closes it. holds onto the clothes a bit tighter, turning his eyes elsewhere again. ]

I'll be fine. It's... it's not a big deal.

[ decides not to push him after confirming that whatever nathan is feeling is not entirely negative. raises his hands to hesitantly put them on nathan's shoulders to pull him into a light hug. then draws back to shuffle over to where the bed is to look down at it. then back up at the smaller boy. ]

Share with Nathan?

[ looks over at it. averts his eyes again, quietly shuffling over to his dresser to open up one of the drawers, placing his clothes in there. ]

I-If you want to...

[ his answer is instant: ]

Ja!

... 'kay.

[ & then makes his way over to the bed though he stops next to it, feeling a bit awkward when he realizes that it's been a while since he's actually slept next to someone, thus he is unsure as to how this works. ]

[ in comparison, he seems right at home with the idea, almost relishing in it. settles down on the bed & wiggles into position, on his side to give nathan the maximum amount of space. opens his arms awkwardly in invitation. ]

[ continues to stand there a bit dumbly for a while longer, picking at the edge of his shirt's sleeves. eventually comes around and climbs in as well, carefully shifting into those arms. curls up a little bit though he's slightly tense, quickly repeating to himself that caleb has shorts on, hoping that'll make him be able to relax without too much difficulty. ]

[ immediately curls up around him, arms firm in their hold as he shuffles around a little to make himself comfortable. glances down through the wall of his bangs when he notices the tenseness & the continuous, anxious heartbeat. starts to loosen his grip a bit. ]

. . . I sleep on floor?

NO-!

[ quickly grabs onto him and shoves his face into caleb's chest, clinging on a little bit childishly despite the rapid beating of his heart. ]

[ leans his head down against nathan's head while a hand moves in a comforting pattern against the other boy's back. ]

Erm. . . I am okay on bed or floor. What Nathan like?

[ opens his mouth, closes it. squeezes his eyes shut, deciding on spitting out some honesty. ]

I... feel funny. Around you. N-not the bad kind, promise. I dunno why, though, s-so I'm not... really sure what to do... 'cause I haven't felt this way before.

[ haven't ever thought about it, either is what he wants to add but he seems to lose his voice, burying his nose into caleb further as he begins to feel slightly mortified. ]

[ takes a moment to register all that, running the words through his head again with the accompanying information from the rest of nathan's vitals. finally, he smiles a little, nodding as he holds him closer again. ]

Nathan not sleep with other person, ja? First time is not easy.

[ grows silent as he ponders a few things. then nudges nathan a little. ]

I know magic! For good sleep. Show Nathan?

[ ... realizes that his point was not entirely noticed, feeling both thankful and disappointed at the same time. ]

[ mentally shakes himself out of it, peeking up at caleb slowly. ]

Magic?

[ nods enthusiastically. then shifts a bit so that his mouth is a little closer to one of nathan's ear. ]

I sing. And Nathan only think of song and me, ja?

[ flushes appropriately at the way caleb's breath tickles his ear and neck, closing his eyes to fight down something he can't explain. instead he just gives a little nod, nudging caleb gently with his forehead. ]

[ nods & shifts a bit before he starts to sing (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amViL-wr_1s) softly into nathan's hair. the tune is well-practiced, the words familiar on his tongue. accompanying rubs to nathan's back accentuate certain beats as his own eyes start to droop close as he further relaxes into the bed. ]

[ tucks his head a bit further underneath caleb's chin, barely registering the fact that he's swiftly falling asleep. it takes the whole duration of the song, but eventually his eyes feel heavy before they draw to a close, allowing him to drift off to dream of happy things for the first time in six years. ]

[ hasn't fallen asleep just yet, drowsily waiting for that telltale drop in breathing, heartbeat & temperature in the small body in his arms. shifts as close as being two different entities allow, tuning in expertly into the unique sound of nathan's heartbeat. feels a sense of calm & peace wash over him immediately, making him feel more secure than he had ever been in the long months that he had been transferred away from germany. feels his mind bring up the good things (the bad things) as he slips deeper & deeper into slumber. but before he lets go completely, he's able to murmur out: ]

Gute Nacht, mein liebster.

[ & then he's gone, falling into a quiet darkness, the sounds of nathan's presence shielding him from the noisy world beyond the walls. ]

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